i can feel them
crawling under my skin,
as if they are one huge form
threatening to burst through,
blocking my throat so that i cannot scream,
scratching and biting at my eyes so that i do not see.
i can still hear people wondering
if am i okay.
but, because i cannot speak,
and because they control me,
force me to not react,
i can only nod.
"i am okay," i lie through my teeth.
i cannot say otherwise; they will stop me.
they block my tears inside my soul,
letting them build up.
they continue to crawl,
making my hairs stand on end;
from fear of them or myself,
i cannot tell anymore.
it is as if they and i are one and the same now.
they are part of me.
i cannot stop them from controlling me.
i would say that, if i hurt you,
then it is not me; it is these creatures,
this one mob inside me.
but it is me.
they control me; they are me.
what terrifying things can they cause me to do?
what horrible things can i do?
they consume entire bodies
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